Prism

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

*FLUFF POST*
Pls skip this post if ur nt into mushy romance stuff
( this post is mostly dedicated to Richard )

I've heard, seen & read how couples fall apart due to distance
or time apart from each other,
heck i think ive even experience it b4.
so im sorry that in the begining i didn't actually thought
this relationship with you was a valid one.
I didnt think it would last, i didnt noe how far we would have gone.

I thought we would be like 90% of the couples who met online.
together for their honeymoon period en break b4 things gt too serious.
the fact that you lived 10,492 km away doesnt make it any easy..
& due to these circumstances im sorry to say we dont have an
anniversary date.. I think it was on June 06 that we gt together, I think.
LoL.. but thats nt so important, cos i've outgrown the importance of a
dating anniversary, be it in mths or yrs.. as long as we're together,
I dun mind if u forgot bout buying me anniversary presents... lmao

To start from the begining.
We met online, in a dance game.
we talk, gt to noe each other, exchange msn, gt to noe each other more.
Then we became an in-game-couple. (means JUST in game)
i duno wen it became an OUT-AND-in-game-couple.. LoL
But yeah, thats how we knew each other.
( to those that i told a diff story, im terribly sorry for deceiving you, iv'e just heard
too much objections to this relationship that i gt tired of telling the truth, so
pls dun come up to me the nxt time u see me & shake your head,
i already noe )
so technically speaking, YES,
I took a HUGE(univers HUGE) risk.. by flying over to a country
thats so so so far away from home, & meeting him for the very 1st time.
Thinking back, i think that has gt to be one of the stupidest thing i have ever done..
LoL... *note: i said stupidest, doesnt mean i regret it.. cos i dont*

Anyway, I flew a 13 hr flight to meet a guy i met online,
oh iv'e seen him b4, talked him too.. jus nvr met IN PERSON(duh)..
so i think, saying that i had "butterflies in my stomach"
is an UNDERSTATEMENT OF THE CENTURY...
i had like butterlies, bees, wasp, flies.. etc etc etc..
i was a bag of nerves...
to tell you the truth, i even thought of turning around and flying back..
LoL.. i noe i noe...
but when i finally saw u, a hug & a peck on the cheek for the 1st time..
i can seriously tell you.. I love u even more..
& like i said, i nvr regretted the decision of meeting you..
^^

In the whole 2 yrs++(i think) that we've called ourselves a couple..
we have only REALLY met and been together for a meer 3 mths...
there has not been a day that has past wer we did NOT fight or disagree on something
Every single DAY was like a rollercoaster.. we would feel everything
from happiness to sadness to jealousy to anger & back to happiness..
were such a psycho couple i wonder how other ppl tolerate us.. LoL...
but even wif such a shaky relationship
i somehow feel we dun even have a scratch on us... were like a bullet proof vest.. hahaha...
u shoot me, i shoot you but were still fine...
Having a long distance relationship is sooooooo hard....
i dunno how i survived so far..

a friend of mine recently has the "problem" of her bf being away
for reservist purposes. she told me how she doesnt like being away from him
for the 3 weeks that he'll be "away" *no offence 3 weeks?? ONLY*
( you either forgot i have a LONG distance relationship or u really didnt have anyone else
to talk to bout this, but seriously... -roll eyes-[again no offence] )
You gave me the "Out of sight, Out of mind"(OSOM) story.
*meaning- you dun see the person or be wif him/her, your feelings en thought
would jus slowly fade away....*
all i can say is that, if you tell me that you really love him..
your not suppose to feel this way in the 1st place...
you nt suppose to feel (OSOM).. cos then tats nt Love...
miss him, yes, jealous, sure(for wat i oso duno since its all guys there), but
how can you say tat ull lose your feeling for him.... ridiculous i tell you...
& if your scared HE might lose his feelings for you, then you have 2 options
- you can always try & win him back (if ur meant to be, ur meant to be)
or -noe that his not serious from the start & jus move on...

All i can say is, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder".
being wif that special someone day in, day out,
can bore the relationship after sometime,
( of cors, tats jus MY opinion, you can always think otherwise )
couples have to have their own space en time alone or wif friends..
couples are suppose to miss each other,
missing the other shows how much you feel for them,
shows how much important their presence is,
it lets you appreciate the time you are together more.
( but like i said, thats jus MY opinion )

Anyway, back to my someone...
Im sorry, i go out wif friends & collegues but you dont.
Im sorry, that i wana do my own stuff at home, like watchin tv or playing Aud.
Im sorry sometimes it seems like im ignoring you & wat you want from me.
but it doesnt mean, im not thinking of u,
it doesnt mean i love you any less,
it doesnt mean im losing my feelings for you,
cos those things dont happen with us.
i noe tat you noe my true feelings.. so pls dun think otherwise.
i noe perfectly well how u feel, so i just need the same understanding from you.
i cant wait to see you this Dec.

I love you, Richard.

PS. to those who read and are now having goosbumps...
dun blame me, i warned you already...
blame your KPO-ness... LoL

K-PoPing @ 12:19 PM